Drug addiction has always been a mystery to me, mainly because I could never wrap my head around the idea that a person can’t find any better sensation than what they’d get out of a line or a pipe or a pill.<\/p>\n
Which is not to say I don’t understand having a moment of weakness or emotional trauma.<\/p>\n
The fact is that I’m lucky to have Ava in my life.\u00c2\u00a0 She trips all my neurological triggers.\u00c2\u00a0 The other day Ava was taking a nap, and I felt like I couldn’t wait for her to wake up.\u00c2\u00a0 She almost never sleeps for more than 90 minutes in the early afternoon, but it seemed like I was forgetting what she even looked like.\u00c2\u00a0 I missed her smile and her voice and the sound of her little feet pattering around the dining room.\u00c2\u00a0 I needed a hit.\u00c2\u00a0 And when she finally woke up and I went and picked her up out of her crib and held her in my arms, I didn’t have a trouble in the world.<\/p>\n
Happy 100, Ava.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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